Demarest

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Demarest

i said goodbye
but I can’t stay away
how can i
you’re the home in
i learned to love
myself
your walls heard my tears
your hallways saw my antics
your door always greeted me
parents absent friends influenced
my dresses, writing, laugh never wavered
when it’s quiet and the summer heat thick
i’ll come visit
you deserve to be loved too.

Juice Rani*

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*rani means queen in Hindi

Drink

shots i expect to be bitter
a tall liquid concoction
made primarily of coconut and pineapple
i couldn’t wait to taste the nectar
but it was marred by the rum
though legal and ready to mingle
with alcoholic beverages
i realized i could do without
the added ingredient
rush of sugar is much preferred
over intoxication

addiction

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when i have an assignment due
my mind buckles down
not to complete it but rather create
in overdrive inspiration hits
for the wrong subject
yield to procrastination
imagination lies in rejection
i have a textbook to read
but i keep coming back here instead

social anxiety

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library

walk into the library
stacks of books are the same
but this afternoon it’s crowded
knot of unease try to find quiet
tiptoe up steps peek through doors
faces laughing unnerved to walk in
push past it cringe at the creak of
entrance group eyes ignored –
I can’t explain it
I walk and talk like them
but my mental label persists
pariah